I've been running all my life tryin' to find who I am and I'm sick of it. Yeah, I'd give anything if I could quit. But I can't stop until it all makes sense.

So I spend some nights just staring at the sky wondering why I am even here. And I challenge, God, Himself to prove he's there, and for a moment I don't feel so scared.

I, don't think I can be the same, it makes me want to change, and go the other way.

Everyone at one point has probably had the same thoughts. This song is deep and so underrated. I'm so glad I rediscovered it today.

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You're looking for a distant light, someone who can save a life. You're living in fear, that no one will hear your cry: Can you save me now?

I am with you. I will carry you through it all. I won't leave you. I will catch you, when you feel like letting go, because you're not alone.

Your heart is full of broken dreams. Just a fading memory. And everything's gone, but the pain carries on.

Lost in the rain again, when will it ever end? The arms of relief, seem so out of reach, but I, I am here.

I am with you. I will carry you through it all. I won't leave you. I will catch you, when you feel like letting go, because you're not alone.

And I will be your hope, when you feel like it's over.

And I will pick you up, when your whole world shatters.

And when you're finally in my arms, look up and see, love has a face.

I am with you. I will carry you through it all. I won't leave you. I will catch you, when you feel like letting go, because you're not alone.

~ God

A beautiful, uplifting message, isn't it? Those are lyrics from the song “Not Alone” by Red.

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Starting off with... I have a new rule for this series of blog posts; all journal entries should be written impromptu or on the spot. This means not copying previously written down notes or entries from my digital or bullet journal.

This is how I originally started writing journal entries in the past by the way. I would login to write.as at night and write a journal entry based on what was in my head at that time.

More of a brain dump, versus a routine that involved going over previous journal entries, then compiling them into one big journal entry/blog post.

Over time, as I got more into bullet journaling, this practice of writing a journal entry on the spot went away. It was replaced by writing a journal entry based on entries I've written down on my bullet journal or daily logs in Obsidian.

At first it was great. I had so much material, so many thoughts and ideas to write about. But as time went by, I noticed that blogging this way became more like a job for me. I lost that excitement that you get with writing something on the spot and then immediately sharing it online. Not to mention, it was a chore having to go through and filter previous daily log entries to find something I can copy or write about.

I'm not saying this method of writing is bad. It's just that for me, it was no longer working. It was no longer keeping the spark for blogging alive that is. And so that's why I'm going back to more impromptu writing with this series.

My eldest son joined a competitive martial arts sport team. I am of two minds about him joining.

I was hesitant about him joining, because of the financial expenses that came with joining a sport team. And yes, I can confirm that it is expensive. There's training fees, competition specific gear you have to buy, competition registration fees, etc... Not to mention, the increased transportation expenses from having to drive him back and forth to his training sessions.

On the other hand, seeing the training that he has to go through, I can only see it benefiting him as he grows up. Not just to make him better at sparring per se, but also to forge him into a person that is mentally tough and can handle anything life throws his way.

My son was so timid and shy by the way before he started doing martial arts. Now he's confident and willing to try out anything, well except food that is. We still need to work on that LOL.

And this is because the master he is training under is very strict and demanding. He expects the best out of his students and pushes them to their limits. He's not being unreasonable though. He is not training students to win a few local competitions here and there. No, he's training them to win competitions at the highest level. The parents who let their kids join the sport team know this. I know this, although this is not the reason why I let my kid join the team.

I let my son join the sport team because I feel like this is the best way for him to get more sparring training. They do sparring in their regular classes, but most of the sparring done there is pretty mild. I want my son to be able to handle someone coming at him aggressively, someone coming at him with the intent kick him in the head. I want him to be able to fend off an attacker like that. I don't really care about him winning national competitions, if that does happen then that would be just icing on the cake.

Now I know what most people will say. Taekwondo is not that good for self-defense. Hmm yes and no. Yes, there's a lot more to self-defense than just kicking and punching. Yes they punch in Taekwondo too. You score 1 point if you do in a sparring competition LOL. But I would dare you to take a roundhouse kick to the head from one of the more competent black belts, and then tell me if you think it is effective.

Anyway, Taekwondo as a martial art to me qualifies as one of the three self-defense skills he would need; namely striking. The other two skills being grappling and weapons training. You could substitute Taekwondo with any martial art that has striking, like Boxing, Karate, Muay Thai, Kickboxing, Krav Maga, etc... It just so happens that he does Taekwondo now and he really enjoys it, so why not help him really get better at it.

By the way, if you want to see a movie that showcases Taekwondo used in a self-defense setting, check out the movie “Officer Black Belt”.

Although the trailer above shows more Judo moves than kicks, there were a number of scenes in the movie where I thought Taekwondo was put to good use. There's this scene specifically, where the protagonist faced off against a guy with a knife. He used his Taekwondo skills to fight him off and subdue him.

It must be noted that they do teach the kids takedowns in my son's Taekwondo school, but they don't focus on it as much as they do with kicking.

Judo by the way, is the other martial art that I would like my kid to learn, but he's not interested, so I won't force him. Maybe I'll try to get him into BJJ. Either one will satisfy the other self-defense skill he needs, which is grappling.

So anyway, going back to talking about his master. He's old school like that and I have no problem with how he teaches. Honestly, I think everyone should experience a teacher/coach like him at least once in their life. It toughens you up. Makes you more resilient. Helps you deal with pressure at work and in life in general.

Anyway, I wanted to write more but this post has gone long enough and the environment I'm in right now is no longer conducive for writing. Let me end with one pet peeve of mine: people talking loudly on their phone in speaker mode.

Talking loudly on your phone is bad enough, but in speaker mode, in a public setting, with people around you, that should be a crime. This is happening right now as I type. I can't imagine what the guy beside her is feeling right now. Must be using up all his energy to try and ignore her. Like seriously, invest in some headsets. Or you know, you could also turn off speaker mode and put the phone on your ear.

Jeez. Anyway, if you've gotten this far, I appreciate you for taking the time to read this piece. Hope you have a great year ahead of you. Peace!

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Best movie I’ve watched in 2025: King of Kings

Brought my kids to watch this movie, but ended up thoroughly enjoying this myself. It's a great retelling of the story of Jesus, based off a story or book that Charles Dickens wrote for his kids. The twist in this movie is that, it is portrayed in such a way where a kid walks alongside Jesus, witnessing His miracles, facing His trials, and understanding His ultimate sacrifice.

Best new video game I've played in 2025: Clair Obscur: Expedition 33

This game has somewhat ruined the traditional turn based JRPG genre for me. It revolutionizes the genre so much, modernized it, that I have a hard time going back to the traditional JRPG experience. I've actually tried to play the older Final Fantasy games and found them to be boring. It's totally unfair of me to judge old games this way, but this just shows how much Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 has changed my expectations of games going forward.

Also, in my gaming blog I hinted at this being Game of the Year material, and it is. It received multiple awards from various video game awards ceremonies this year. Truly one of the best video games to have come out in a long time.

Best new rock song I’ve listened to in 2025: “We’re All Gonna Die” by NOTHING MORE

Could listen to this song all day. It is dark but meaningful. The song's vibes and melody reminds me of songs from My Chemical Romance and Escape the Fate. The best part of this song is the line “Hello, darkness, my old friend” during the bridge, an obvious nod to the “The Sound of Silence” by Simon & Garfunkel.

Best new anime I’ve watched in 2025: Kaiju No. 8

This was a recommendation from my brother in law and wow am I so happy he recommended it. It is funny and action packed with a great plot line. I've very much enjoyed watching this with my kids. My eldest son became such a fan, that for Christmas, he actually asked Santa for a Kaiju. No. 8 book.

Best new TV show I’ve watched in 2025: Physical Asia

Did not think I would like this show, but I was intrigued enough to watch it because Manny Pacquiao was in it. Pacquaio's inclusion was actually “meh”, but this show turned out to be really entertaining and thrilling at times. It was fun to root for a team and their athletes. Even though in the end, it seemed like it favored a specific team, I think it was still a good watch. It was good enough that my kids actually enjoyed watching it with me and the wife. The best thing about this show though, is how it influences me to try to be more fit and healthy. Any show that does that and is also entertaining, is a good one in my opinion.

Best book I’ve read in 2025: The Strength of the Few by James Islington

This is book 2 of the Hierarchy Series, from the author of The Licanuis Trilogy which I very much enjoyed. So technically, I didn't finish reading this book yet, because it only came out last November. But I've been waiting for this book to come out, since I finished reading The Will of the Many back in late 2024. That book ended so dramatically that I was left flabbergasted and itching to read the next one. I had to wait a year for this second book to come out and it doesn't disappoint! Looking forward to finishing this in 2026.

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So, here's my response to his question about my “writer's carry”:

Interesting, I've never heard it called a “writer's carry”, but it does make sense.

I used to write down my thoughts and ideas on my bullet journal. That habit slowly faded away once I started using Obsidian on my phone. Since my bullet journal is too big to carry around with me all the time, I still primarily write down thoughts and ideas on my phone first. But lately, I've been trying to get back to more analog writing, and have been writing to my bullet journal more.

I currently have a navy blue Bullet Journal, the official one that is a collab with Leuchtterm1917. As for my pen, I alternate between a Uni Jetstream pen and a Zebra Sarasa pen. Everywhere else where I can't easily write into my bullet journal, I use Obsidian on my phone.

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Link: Stormy Weather

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This song has aged well. Still so good!

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